This year really is passing far too quickly. In February I celebrated turning 25 and after reading my post from last year I cannot believe what a difference a year makes. This time last year I was in Spain and I wasn't sure what direction I was going in but I was enjoying my time living in a new place with some of the nicest people I have had the pleasure of meeting. Since then I have had many interviews, many rejections and have been working on a new venture by one of the local farmers in getting local produce to customers through vegetable vending machines! I am hoping that 2015 is going to be my year.
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| Share my birthday with my lovely gran. Here is her first selfie :) |
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| I miss these guys way more than they realise! |
Shortly I will be starting a new job and I will hopefully be using skills that I learnt in uni and for this I am truly grateful! I am lucky enough to be having a house built and I will be able to live independently again. For all the members of the boomerang generation I think we all understand the draining feeling of answering the mundane questions of where you are going, who you will be with, what time you will be back, if you are home for dinner. All of the above are solely your parents showing interest but I am really looking forward to being able to do my own food shop, live a bit more environmentally friendly and pay my own bills. I am also lucky enough to be dating a very nice guy and after feeling like I wasn't achieving much I can finally say that I am happy with the way that things are going in my life!
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| The beginnings of my new home :) |
I have come to realise that my insecurity of if I have made the right decisions and fear of judgement stemmed from social media. We are living in a digital age and people are constantly comparing themselves to others. Only today did I log in to Facebook and Instagram and I was inundated by photos of people with the best mothers and where part of me is happy that there is so much love around between children and mums. I can't help but feel a tinge of sadness for those who do not have close relationships or for those who may have lost their mothers but maybe that is just me being a bit cynical.
The digital age has completely changed the way people interact and communicate with each other. . No matter where in the world they are friends are only a skype call, facebook or whatsapp message away! Even this blog it started off as a opportunity for my friends and family to see what I was up to and it has become something that I wanted to continue. Even if it is just me babbling. I am not sure how much longer I will continue writing it as I feel that what I have to say may not be as interesting or relevant to those who read it. But for the moment it's a nice way to update those who are interested!
One thing I have really noticed recently is how different some people are online to how they are in person. I have recently set up a Twitter account and I just don't get it. I feel like if you are to keep up to date on news you need to be checking it all the time and I don't like that everyone has to be available all the time now. People are struggling to live their 'real' lives because they are so concerned about what is going on online. Everything has to be documented to show everyone else how much fun you are having rather than just enjoying it at the time. I enjoy photography and like trying to capture specific moments but I don't like feeling glued to my phone all the time and often find myself apologising if I have not responded to a text or email for a couple of hours. I was recently at a gig where photos were prohibited and it was great to see people just standing enjoying the music rather than having to watch the gig through the persons screen in front of you.
Maybe turning 25 has made me sound like an old woman but I honestly wish that people would live in the moment and not worry so much about documenting your every move and just because other people are posting about how fantastic their lives are online, try not to let it impact your life. I constantly doubted myself based on what other people were doing and when I step back and take a look I think I am doing alright for myself.
And now I am going to be a massive hypocrite by posting this online ;)
- Laura xox
